Mind Games

“I have got to stop being superstitious”, is what I have been telling myself for the past one year...without any result of course.

I have a fear of sharing anything good that’s happened to me or my loved ones because I know I am jinxing it. I know that THAT happiness will not last long, now that I have told it to someone else. It’s almost as if it’s a crime to be happy and even worse, let people know about it! As if the devils have called for a conference to ruin my joy. If I have a plan of getting up early in the morning at 6 o’clock for jogging and have told a friend about it, it turns out, by default that I cannot get up the next day! As mundane as it sounds, it has always happened to me! Never has my superstitious belief failed me. So I touch wood to avert the tragedy. Don't know if that helps or no.

The other superstitions, although I don’t believe in them, I am scared to take up the challenge! Just to prove my point, I will neither cross the path that a black cat has passed nor allow somebody to step over me fearing that my vertical growth will be stunted.

Is it really true? Or is it all a psychological game that the universe plays with us? Or is it our mind playing the game with us?

I don’t think that it is harmful to believe in superstitions but I have this urgent need to overcome my fears. Fears like this that I, myself am generating.

‘How’ is the question. Any answers?